Christmas

Well it's safe to say that Christmas this year was one to remember. The holidays usually are but this one more so. 

A few weeks ago mom rushed my dad to the hospital and I had no idea why or what was going on. A couple days later my mom told us out dad was going to get a colonoscopy done. I thought about it for a little and it just didn't add up.. Why? My dad wasn't even fifty yet.. Then my mom told me that the doctors thought it was colon cancer. All the symptoms were adding up and it didn't look good. So naturally I freaked out. As much as we fight and don't agree on lots, he's still the only dad I've got and there is no way I'm ready to let him go. 

The day of the procedure came and went and we were in limbo for about 4 days. Then about a week ago my dad got the much awaited call and it turns out that the polyps that were found were pre-cancerous. Had they waited a month longer, we would be considering chemo treatments right now. 

This cancer scare shed a whole new  light onto the holidays. It's safe to say that we are all noticing the hand of God a lot more in our lives and are incredibly greatful that we get to keep out poppa a little bit longer . 

birthday nothings

well i have officially been twenty for the past ten days and boy oh boy. 

nothing has changed. i don't think i know how to be twenty quite yet. it all feels the same. 

kind of like when you wake up on your thirteenth birthday and expect to feel different because you are finally a teenager , but you don't because you really aren't. in some ways i feel extremely old. i mean i'm finally out of my teens, high school has been over for almost two years, i'm a sophomore in college, i bought my first car.. those sorts of things. but in others i feel the exact same. puppies make me squeal, forehead kisses are still my favorite, i cuddle my mom when i'm sad and juice boxes are still great. i guess my soul will forever be six. 

as for my actual birthday, it was definitely one for the books. 

the boy was leaving on a Mexican vacation on the eighteenth, so they had Christmas on fourteenth and that night we did birthday stuff just so we could fit it all in. 

it started off with me sleeping in if I remember correctly and me making my way to the shower very slowly. i had to be ready by four thirty because there was a furry something waiting for us at the boy's house. 

A PUPPY. 

this is Rosie. some sort of lovely mix that ended up with giant ears. it's safe to say that my heart was stolen by this pup. she played for a little, tried to eat tay's hair and was dropped a few times because Krew was just as excited about Rosie as i was (i knew i liked that kid). after a little i got to puppy-hog and cuddle her to sleep while getting a foot rub. yes, he really is THAT amazing. but then i realized that i don't really know what to do with a puppy.. but it was still the best hour of the night:) 

then we went to costa for dinner before heading off to catching fire!! which is a huge deal because usually we hit up the dollar theater, so when catching fire came out i asked if we could go see it in the real movie theater because i didn't want to wait. of course he said "maybe.." which usually means no if it involves spending more money than really necessary. but off we went!:) when we got there tay realized that he actually had tickets for the day before so we quickly had to go to the guest services desk and ask if we could just switch the date. luckily the woman said it was okay and we got pretty awesome seats! we ended up in the handi-capped seats! the movie itself was SO GOOD! #teampeeta 

i figured my birthday fun day would be over around now, i mean i got a dang PUPPY, but nope. off we went to magleby's for their famous chocolate cake. for me!:)

then! we went to Mimi's cafe for birthday hot chocolate:) 

which was super cute because we did this for my birthday last year too!

aren't we just the cutest?? 

then we ended the night on taylor's couch cuddling after a packed birthday full of a FETCHING PUPPY. 

so that Monday, my actual birthday..

 the weeks leading up to finals are so much more stressful for me than actual finals week so by the time finals actually started, on my birthday, i was burnt out and ready to call it quits and become a stripper. somehow (with the help of my lovely sister and tay) everything got done and i pounded out 3 finals on my birthday. it was sort of like a present from the universe; the light at the end of the tunnel was visible. the end was near. 

i went to work for about half hour before calling it quits for the day. i mean i just took THREE finals and it was my BIRTHDAY. i came home and took a much deserved birthday nap and then my mom woke  me up and asked what i wanted for dinner. i chose smokehouse something.. and we had a great dinner then tay came over again! but this time be brought presents! he came over and we ate cake...

and he gave me presents! 

i got a pair of cool shoes, a GIANT flannel that smells like him:), a phone case and GIANT candy canes!

then i just curled up next to this hunk after a long day and we called it good. 

and now i'm welcoming twenty with open arms. 

my parents gave me an iphone and service for my birthday! it's kinda funny how little things like that can sometimes be the best birthday present ever. it's one less bill i need to pay. and in between work and christmas dinner we decided that we'd go out to dinner this weekend for my birthday:) the celebration is yet on going!

F I N A L S

Finals.

 The week when brushing your hair becomes a luxury many of us can't afford. 

Your life looks much like this,

 and your study habits don't differ much from this.

if you haven't seen this video, please take 3 minutes and it will make you feel a lot better about finals.
promise. 

Welcome to finals lovelies. 

T H A N K S G I V I N G

It's a few days late but  better late than never. 

(in no particular order)

As i get older the things i'm thankful change and the list is ever growing but here's a few. 

1. we have so many fights and so many arguments but I know that these people will always be by my side. i love my family so much even when i don't like them. my mom is seriously ALWAYS there for me even when it means being there with me alone.

2. since the mission age changed all my friends got up and left. so it's been a little awkward to try and figure out who to play with on weekends when the boy is working or when I just need a girls night. and oddly enough (since i don't have perma bitch-face or anything) i still don't have friends. but i'm learning to be okay and not really need anyone constantly around. weird, but I like to think that i've grown so much in the past few months. and as for the few girls I still keep in touch with, it's like we're closer than ever. and I cannot wait until my bestie comes home for Christmas. we are going to raise hell.

3. the boy. he helps me with my homework, hooks me onto breaking bad and comes over after it snows to see if my car is 4 wheel drive before school at 7:45. he really is a gem and i am super thankful that he's mine.

4. i'm so thankful for imperfections. i think they're what truly make everyone beautiful and quirky. as a wise Hannah Montana once said "nobody's perfect, i've gotta work it"

5. leggings. they're an acceptable form of pants and they're as comfy as they come.

6. Blessings. I have been blessed in so many ways and it's impossible to count but I know someone is looking out for me and is telling me to get my lazy butt up and grab life by the balls. because lets face it, you don't get to work in the Government unless you do. (maybe this bitch-face will pay off)

Irony at It's Finest

This blog was intended to be a new start to being twenty. 

Well it's safe to say that so far nothing has really changed and i'm still as nineTEEN as ever. 

That may be due to the fact that i am still nineteen for the next 12 days...

But still, I don't see much changing in the next 12 days as finals are sprinting towards me. 

12 days until finals start. 

classes end in 9 days. 

 I have 2 Terrorism papers to write, 

1 Terrorism test to turn in, 

1 Ethics paper to write (and a possible 2nd and last one assigned today) 

2 and a half chapters of math homework due on the 8th 

and due to a glorious update from mymathlab the program will be down on the 7th. all day. 

1 math quiz (and another one on the possible horizon) 

oh and a take home part of one of my finals is given on Friday and it's only worth 2/3's of my final grade. 

And, I work every day this week. So excuse me if I overdose on dry shampoo and peppermint mocha's. I have lots to do and no time. 

Oh and in typical fashion of my life, stats isn't taught online this semester. I'm wait-listing for a class but there are still three people ahead of me and tuition is due on the 11th. So I have a week to get in. 

Here's to the real new start (after finals of course)!