Thank You.

I don't know if you'll ever read this, if you got rid of your app that told you whenever I posted or if you ever want to see this blog again. But this is for me, not you.
Thank you..
You taught me that I deserve to have my car door opened and my forehead kissed.
You taught me what forgiveness really meant.
You tested my limits and showed me what my boundaries should be.
You taught me endless math concepts.
You taught me how to drive stick shift.
You taught me how to put a relationship's needs above my own.
Through all this, we had so many laughs and so many tears.
But the most important thing you taught me was seeing who really supports and loves me when you break me. Thank you for breaking my heart in Hawaii. I had my best friend a foot and a half away from me. She held me and let me get all the crying out of my system. She gave me countless pep talks and there is a certain comfort only she can provide. You showed me that my mom will always love me no mater what my choice is. She called me at 4 in the morning Utah time to hear me cry and not tell me "I told you so." She reminds me how strong I am and how I will move on. You showed me that I have so many people in my life that are willing to step up and take care of me when I'm down for the count.
Please know that for the time being, you are not welcome around me or my house. You don't get to ruin my safe spaces. Just like I will respect yours. We said that eventually we would try to be friends again, but know that there are decisions you are making now that are driving me away. If you were serious, there is a lot of work that's going to be required for me to accept you again. You are doing this.
I hope for the best for you. Good luck at DECA nationals, your 360, graduation, I hope senior prom is great...
Lastly, I hope that you find the man you want to be and that you love him as much as I did.

Thanks.